Sunday, October 29, 2006

anyway. i m like dead tired. and i m so annoyed. my fantasy team performed like crap this week. silly henry and fabregas played me out, non of my mid fielders scored and primus was a nut. just hope for an inspired performance by benni macarthy and lucus neill tonight. heh. den i wont be too far behind shawn. but the cool part is pool pool won! yea man. i love the kuyt goal. heh. its like my mom was in my room at that time den i scream YES! den she started scolding me. lol.

service today was good la. can feel the passion really creeping back in. but like yating said yesterday, its up to u to make the first step, den u ll get ur breakthru, still have to make myself do QT first, cus i had loads of stuff going in my mind during service and really felt quite stirred up.

first was, bring this certain fren to church, try all ways and means to, den for anotehr one of my frens hu left church. the specific line was, ______ needs to come back. heh. talk about power. just feel really convicted right now! and really wanna accomplish alot of things by the time next years ends.

as for certain stuff i wanna take up additionally. i think during promos i proved myself. its like start of the year, i tot i could handle, council plus studies plus church, fell flat on my face, den after that i went into a year of slacking and not paying attention and not doing my work and stuff, den it dawned on me that hey, i m not depending on God enuf. so its like promos, even with my dwindling spiritual man, i really really depended on God, and i studied for the first time like some crazy fella. and i can seriously say, i m totally satisfied with my results for 3 reasons:
1. i really felt God came thru for me and did more den i expected
2. i gave it all i could and when i got my results, there was never this feeling of, u shud be doing better, cus for a bad year, i think God and i did a great job of turning it around
3. totally rebuked my parents claims in saying i couldnt study with company or outside the house

and during the studying, i was doing openhouse stuff which took loads of time too, after exams i was doing openhouse stuff, tuitions, strikeforce and it seems fine. thats why i really think i shud get a chance to try out some other stuff la.

plus, after openhouse i m ultra convinced i need to improve how i work under pressure and stress and how to make people listen to u without using screaming [apparently u scream, they still wont listen, but u dun think of that when u scream right, haha] and thinking logically in adrenaline filled situations, thats why when julie was walking around, recruiting people, i was like, why not give it a go man, anyway, can join with yvonne, wont be so lonely. and it doesnt clash with strikeforce plus its not really time consuming.

and i really felt compelled to sow more time to God la, cus this few weeks, keep getting stuff that tell me, not everything is about money and how money consist of ur life and stuff, so giving my time or a larger portion of my life would be a greater offering, wouldnt it? besides, being a 17 year old student, i dun have much cash to give anyway right...

yups. and lastly, cus yesterday i couldnt directly answer the question yating asked me, about wad are ur talents and how do wanna use it to serve God. so i thought about it. i feel that in the future, i wanna be in the marketplace and glorify God with my talents, which is liking to meet new people, to talk loads of nonsense, publisize stuff, logistics. which kinda sums up doing business, impacting people thru the way i work and talk to them, aiding them with creative and contemporary ideas, showing people, certains things can be done. heh. thats why right now, i really wanna give myself as much exposure as possible, to learn cus i believe that whatever God allows us to do now, and wadever God puts us in now, never ever belittle it, cus its like ur progressive course, its like preparations for bigger portfolios, its like ur humble beginnings. beginnings of learning, of being trained and chastened.

thats why i wanna polish my talents. and thats why i wanna expose myself and thats why i wanna do the additional stuff. hope u people out there understand now.

really wanna praise God for my new jersey, my new watch and the 65 cents that matthew gave me today [lol!] and all the fiancial blessings that have been coming in over the last week!

|cowpoo| 5:01 PM|

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